How do you go on when your entire world shatters in an instant?
For years, I was blind to the warning signs, convinced myself things would get better, and put my faith in a broken system. Then, one tragic night, everything changed. My soulmate of 26 years, the mother of my children, took her own life, leaving behind more questions than answers.
This book is not just a story—it's a raw, unfiltered look at the depths of grief, the weight of trauma, and the long road to healing. I share the darkest moments, the guilt, the anger, the unbearable loss, and, ultimately, the transformation that allowed me to rebuild my life.
If you've ever felt trapped by pain, if you’re searching for a way forward, if you need proof that healing is possible—this book is for you. Grief doesn’t come with a manual, but maybe, just maybe, my story can help you write your own.
Karen Winter
Fabulous book Jay, easy to read and understand that mindset is the key and self love. Losing my daughter shook my inner core and I thought I had to feel this pain always in order to honor her for the remainder of my life, how wrong was I.
Toni S.
The most truthful approach to healing from loss
I lost my husband of 37yrs in 2020. I was so scared that I was going to be in so much pain with grief for the rest of my life. Then I started to follow Jays guidance. If you are suffering from grief you must read this book it will give you the tools for how to heal. Jay shares his own experience of loss and suffering and now has helped so many of us heal using his own experience, education, and most of all true compassion and love for others who are experiencing pain from loss. I am now living my best life while honoring my late husband, father of my children, my best friend, and soulmate. Thanks Jay!
Lari Debruin.
Move on from your pain.
This book is a strong resource in working through your grief when your reason for being on the earth has been removed. Jay has lived this. He writes with a passion that only someone who has experienced deep gut wrenching despair can know. I saw myself in every page. His ideas and thoughts and strategies on how to get on top of this agony are solid and well thought out. This book will help all those who read it
Hayes Browning
The Truth You Need To Hear
Jay takes you through a detailed life story of love, loss, despair, and healing. He has a no nonsense approach to healing and gives you the tools you need to begin your own healing journey. It’s spurred me to seek out Jay to help me begin my healing after I experienced the devastating loss of my wife to cancer. The book was the catalyst to me taking control of my future.
This isn’t your average grief journal.
It’s not about “getting over it.” It’s about finally getting real with yourself — and choosing to heal.
Created by Self Love & Mindset Coach Jay Deutsch, this 90-day guided journal is designed for those who are ready to stop surviving and start healing. Whether you're in the early days of grief, deep in the emotional chaos, or finally ready to let go and move forward — this journal will meet you where you are and help you rise.
What You’ll Find Inside:
90 neuroscience-based, NLP-informed prompts divided into 3 transformative phases:
1. Navigating the Pain
2. Feeling It Fully
3. Letting Go & Moving Forward
• Mindful reflection and presence-based questions to rewire the thoughts keeping you stuck
• Science-backed mindset tools, healing truths, and reminders of your power — every few pages
• A space to break cycles, shift your story, and create a future that feels like yours again
This journal isn’t the healer. You are. But these pages will guide you, challenge you, and remind you of what you already know deep down:
• Grief doesn’t have to last forever.
• Healing is possible.
• And what you don’t change… you are choosing.
You don’t need to be ready. You just need to begin. And this Journal guides you through it
